my dream last night was heartwrenching. i need to find power over my mind so i can control this. it has no right to do this to me. it feels like some form of torture or punishment. like someone is fucking with me. it takes everything in my power not to share these dreams with you - as you say - it’d be pointless. you know, i thought i saw you twice - the reaction my body had was huge… throat closes, stomach knots, that mysterious tickling shudder passed over my body …and both times it was the old man who lives down the street from you. jokes on meee. the emotions one dream can conjure up are incredible - and i’ve had three about you this week. i feel awful.
